Lord, you are good and your mercy endures forever.
You are good, all the time, all the time, you are good.



Aside from that,
I got called back for the Euphonics (a cappella group), I am so excited.


...we worship youuu, alleluiah, alleliuah.

College=Wonderful.

I love it here at Albion.

Updated.

Wow.

I did a lot of thinking today. I read my old livejournal, I read my old notes/emails, etc. I can't believe what I have become.

Two years ago I was such a different person, I am almost ashamed of the way I acted, the things I said, the words I chose, the stories I made up, the places I went, the people I knew, the actions I took...the entire way that I lived.

I am a completely different person today. I owe that to a lot. I owe it to my parents for letting me figure out for myself what I should and should not value. I owe it to Tim for so easily bringing out the best in me. I owe it to my friends...for being there for me, and not being afraid to tell me when I am wrong. I owe it to Elise for challenging me with a part of my life I needed to finally accept. I owe it to myself for finally growing up.

So, I am sorry if you knew me in the years 2002-2004. I sincerly apologize.

Something that did really stick with me while I was reading super old enteries was my constant love for Tim. Dare I say...he is the one? Dare I say that next year is terrifying me? That this "break" is the perfect thing and the worst thing at once? That even with the intention to get back together, the idea of not being his leaves me fearful? Or that the idea of him being with someone else leaves me empty? Should we really risk this incredible thing we have for the mutual craving to make-out with someone else? Do I even want that? Is that really worth it? Is that shameful to even think it would be something I want? Is it bad that I haven't been alone in years? Should I be scared of just being Annie, and not a part of a joint relationship? Is he really the one? Does it matter if he is? Why is it that this has to be so hard all of the time? I love him-and that is about the only thing that I do know, the only thing that isn't a question in my mind...so why isn't that enough? Why do we have to be so far apart, and why am I going to Albion? How come I'm not enrolled in Philadelphia CC?

Really, these questions are meaningless...I know the answers. I know time will tell..I know Albion is going to be perfect for me, and it might just take me a few random nights, and tim a few random nights to finally realize that this is it. Because it is. I would give anything to be his everything.

I'm really happy. Finally I am in a place where I look back at the last two years and can be really proud...not looking back in shame of the ridiculous choices I once thought were right. It's grow up time, and I am finally here.

come what may
i will love you
until my dying day.

tonight, cosmo says this:

it seems like everytime i watch the news, talk in class, read the paper, or stumble into general political conversaion and the idea of "welfare" comes up...i hear the same thing from my friends to the right. handouts, fall back, etc.

tonight i think i have had enough with that.

this week in congress 2 bills were written regarding the situation in iraq. each were lead by democrats (kerry and reed f/ ri) and each outline a "plan" and goal for the eventual end of the war. as a result, just about every rebulican and their mom races to the media to call democratics unpatriotic for daring to state that EVENTUALLY the troops will have to deploy.
when did it become patriotic to believe in iraqi's and not our own american people? why is it wrong to even mention that at some point iraqis will need to stablize their own country, run their own goverment, and not depend the US for stability--but it's RIGHT to critizie the welfare program for giving handouts? why is it okay to stay iraq forever to fund and support their entire way of life, but it's shameful to minimally support a single mother with 3 children and a 3rd shift job?

unpatriotic? hmm, don't think so.

its time we start the mentality that believing in America means believing in Americans.

i went camping

Albion=the perfect place for me to go to college.

Orientation was pretty dec, I got into all the classes I wanted and needed, met some pretty cool people, and familiarized myself with Albion's beautiful campus. All in all, it was a great weekend.

Elise leaves tomorrow morning and I'm not sure how I am going to handle it.


In other news, you are all invited to my grad party...I just didn't feel like making invitations. I will post directions to the new house and stuff on here later.

JULY 15, 2-5 be there, or be square.


***and seriously, that just got reallllllly uncomfortable. Keep it to yourself dude.

Ahhh..

what?! graduation!? weird. really, really, really weird.

This entire day has been weird. I am terrified right now to get up infront of all of you and basically pour my heart out as to what I feel is the best advice for our class. I hope you all don't hate my speech-its incredibly difficult to write. Meh.

I talked to my roommate for next year today. As far as I can tell shes awesome and we are going to have a great time next year and probably the next 4 years to come. I keep thinking about that entire 4 year increment. Thats weird, no? 4 years ago we were freshman, now next year we are freshman. After tonight we are the class of 2010, not 2006. Weird. It all seems really surreal.

4 more days until i got to albion orientation.


ahh...weird.


i love you class of 2006

may the time not be too distant
when we meet by the river shore
'til then dream of that wonderful day
as we sing once more, once more...


i love you guys...

Well, I'm going to Albion.

F you American University. Seriously, if I could, I would cut off my middle finger and paste it to your wall.
Okay, so I'm really bummed I'm not going to the school of my dreams...but I got in. I got in with honors to their School of Public Affairs, and I made a college level musical theater deptartment-something I never thought I would do. That will be my greatest accomplishment for a long time. If I look back, I'm not good enough to do it forever, I will probably never make it to Broadway, but I tried, I did the best I could, I got in, and it just wasnt meant to be. This is God's plan for me and i'm going after it...as a Briton.

So yeah, I wasted the last 2 years of my life obsessing over college when it was always right under my nose.

Things I like about Albion:
1. The Kellogg Center rocks. Its the perfect student center, and you all know I am down with that.
2. Size, I like a small place
3. Prestige, Harvard of the Midwest, no?
4. My sister loves it
5. It's flippin pretty
6. I can be invovled in....everything.
7. Its not to close and not to far from home
8. I'm going for...hmm...cheap.
9. I might someday live in the "Doll House"--my sisters kick ass house she lives in as a senior
10. Amy's boyfriend will be there to get me into sweet parties
11. They have purple pants...duh.
12. The freshman dorms are sweet
13. Frosty Dans--can I say more?
14. Brent Green went there
15. Scratch #14-i really didn't mean that
16. I'm going to a sweet grad/law school like my sister and some of her friends

Yeah, and I guess thats it, but I'm really pumped. I will leave you with some hott pics of

Ahhhhh, I love me some Spring Break.

Heres the run down:

Sunday morning Elise, Trisha, and I all got up from my house and left at around 7:30 for Chicago. We got there at about 11 and headed to Loyola University Chicago for an admitted students day. We took a tour and talked to some majors and that was about it. I wasn't as happy with it as I was last year at this time when I saw it, but I suppose it will work as a good back-up for college.

After the stint there my mom and step dad took us 3 to our hotel and we got all checked in and such, then they left and we headed to North Park University, one of ELise's perspectives. I really liked it a lot-a lot more than I thought I would, and it too will serve as a solid back up for Elise if Wheaton doesn't work out.

That night we headed downtown to Girodano's where we had about an hour wait-which was fine, we just sat and talked in a window of the restaurant. I love them. Hm, then we had probably THE BEST pizza ever and ended up having a hott waiter too. After that we had to run home in a thunderstorm down Michigan Avenue, where we did meet a man who looked ridiculously like Bradley Whitford, whom we all know I love and adore. I made the mistake of telling him that he looked just like BW, the sexiest man alive...and then it got awkward. Anyways, we just went back to the hotel and got in bed.

The next morning we woke up and went to the Museum of Contemporary Photography-which was sweet. I was captivated by this video of a house being flooded. It was intense. After we got back into the mainstrip and went for a little shopping trip. Basically we spent all of our money at H&M. Then we went back to the room for a quick nap before going to NAvy Pier for dinner and movie. We ate at BG'S which was delish...and then we save V for Vendetta--which was AWESOME. The next morning it was time to leave, Elise and Trisha headed to Wheaton before getting back to Skeetown and I headed to the airport to come see Tim.

Now, we arrive in PHiladelphia. I got off the plane and there was my boyfriend. Thats a good feeling. We came back to campus and just layed around for a while...it was really nice to kiss him again. That night we went to a rootbeer kegger in the bottom of the quad which was funny and then came back and went to sleep. In the morning we went to class, or, I went with tim, whatever, and that was pretty fun. I can't wait to go to college class, although it won't be as fun not going here...because mark my words, The University of Pennsylvania is BEAUTIFUL. You should all see the buildings we went in for class...just stunning. Anyway, then we went to the bookstore where I beat Tim in Sudoku, then I came back while Timmy went to practice. After we got some dinner and then headed to Irvine for a sketch comedy show. It was pretty funny, Gilbert Godfrie was there! Anyway, other than that we went to see V for Vendetta last night beause I thought Tim would love it, and we went to Cereality this morning for anniversary breakfast. That's right, two years. Mmm. So now I have to go back soon and I really don't want to. I love it here, and I love my boyfriend. Meh.

Anyways, IN OTHER NEWS...


I got in to the American University's Musical Theater Deptartment. I about peed my pants. I honestly didn't think I even had a shot...and I want to thank Stephanie and Alyssa for giving me material for my audition. I love you guys.
Ugh, I'm so excited. I might be going now...I cannot wait. I am just waiting for my second financial statement and I could be good to go.

sorry, that was a book.

*since more than half of you decided not to show up...


...jerks.


jk


kind of

if there are issues lemmy know, trisha kaitlin, alyssa and i had to do it by ourselves.

Well, it's almost the end. I seriously cannot believe it. For the last 3 years this week has always been amazing. Obviously, I'm speaking about the show. But, this is the last high school tech week, and it's the last time I will get a mic strap on, the last time I will have my costume on the rolling rack, the last time I will sit next to Lauren (tradition, of course) in the dressing room to put our make-up on, and the last time I will bow after the last allegros show. I really cannot believe it. I'm about to head over to school right now, I just figured I would put some of this down.

I love you all who are performing tonight, I don't know what I will do next year. Whether I am in DC or Chicago I will be attending an amazing college one way or another, but it won't be Mona Shores. As much as I hate saying it, and as much as I am over high school...choir and allegros and all of it are so much more than just a hobby.

I won't get through What I Did For Love on Saturday night...I promise.

in other news...

I wish it was spring break so I could go see my flippin boyfriend. I apparently always go on the best weekends because I am going over our 2 year anniversary, the week before his birthday, and on UPenn's Spring Fling Week-the greatest of all Ivy League party events :). Basically I am just excited to spend some time with timmy. When we are away I really realize how amazing he is. My romantic history isn't exactly something I am proud of...I was in a handful of awful relationships that were completely wrong in everyway-I am so lucky to be with someone like Tim. He doesn't cheat on me, or control me, or hurt me, or get jealous, he's just him, and that way everything is perfect. Ugh. Love love love love love.

other than that...

I am barely hanging on in the land of academia anymore, senioritis has hit pretty hard. I really want to get another gold card this semester just so I can have one all summer, but I don't know-I am having a real hard time getting my B to bump itself up to an A in AP Microecon-meh.

alright, well I should go now, it's make-up time :)

<3<3


GO SEE THE FLIPPIN SHOW!!!

A CHORUS LINE
MARCH 23-25
be there or be super square.

Well...

"Dear Ann,

Congratulations on being accepted to The American University class of 2010. We hope to see you next year as an Eagle."



holy. flipping. crap.


I'm going to DC.

Alright.

Here I am. Sitting. Wondering. Almost peeing my pants...

Tomorrow I leave (with most of you) to the great city of Chicago to see Wicked (sighs), hoorary. That doesn't scare me, but what does is that literaly 2.5 hours after returning to MI, I am jumping on a plane to DC.

Once I arrive I will look at monuments until Sunday night when I will enter a room and continue with arguably the 5 most important minutes of my life. I have 5 minutes (that yes, i had to fly all the way to washingon for), to do 2 monologues, and 2 songs. I will audition for the (hopefully) nice people at The American University and hope that they can hear in my voice how digustingly much I want to be in their awesome musical theater program and there awesome school in their awesome school with an awesome scholarship that leads to awesome oppertunity and ends with an awesome career in theater and politics (also, its awesomely close to my boyfriend who is..awesome.).

Ugh.

5 minutes?

5 minutes that will literally dictate the next 4 years of my entire life? 5 minutes that will decide whether or not I got half way across the country or to Chicago? 5 minutes of me forced to perform better than I have ever done before and actually be 1 of the 150 they chose to be in a group of only 15?

Wtf.
5 minutes.

So, here I am...begging you, the LJ reader, to pray for me on Sunday night. Please, please, please. You have no idea how thankful I would be to have some kind Karma going around-i really, really, really want this.

i love you all, leave me kind thoughts
see you all wednesday

everyone has a secret
oh, can they keep it
oh, no they can't



i don't get it
i could never do that

Alright, since this is a trend...

heres what I got, (there are about 1,000,000 of them, so hold on)

My New Philosophy (you're a good man charlie brown) W/ Josh
Name Used: Sally Brown (over, and over again)
Take Me or Leave Me (rent) W/ My gurrrrrl Sarah
Name Used: Baby, Pookie, Honey Bear, Shawn said nicknames work
I Can Do Better (last five years) solo
Name Used: All the friend's names...i forget
My Sherona (you know, that song) W/ Harmon8
Name Used: Sherona!
I Still Believe (miss saigon) w/ Rachel T
Name Used: Chris, Kim, etc
SMOOTH CRIMINAL-CHAMBER CHOIR

Other things...
there is a song from tick tick boom i am thinking about, and a song called forget about the boy that the cell block girls should maybe do, plUS HERCULES!! w/ other ladiesssss

maybe spanish rose from bye bye birdie,
i dunno there are millions in my head

well, this weekend I did 1 thing and 1 thing only--Allegretto Notte

If you aren't involved you can skip this entry, it will be pretty pointless.

Buttttttt if you are involved, please keep close attention to the following:
1. Shirts will be in Monday morning! Please wear them all day. In addition to your shirts, please wear attire you can dance in, and your name tag AT ALL TIMES! I spent about 2 hours tonight making everyone a name tag with a sticker that corresponds to the group they are in as well as the other kids in their group.

2. Reeces mom offered for the choir board to buy all the snacks! This is great and means that you don't have to bring any. However, if you really want to help please bring plates, plastic cups, napkins, or plastic silverware-the more we have the better. Thank you!

3. Other things: I bought a lot of supplies last night, but I didn't have enough to buy masking tape or enough sharpies. If any of you have these things laying around your house pleaseeeeeeeee bring them! The more the better

Okay, thats basically it. That you all for bearing with me these last 2 weeks and listening to all my shpeals and such. You are such amazing performers and Monday is going to go so well. If you have anything you need to get ahold of me about PLEASE E-MAIL ME!

anngawk@gmail.com

Concluding,
things to bring: sharpies, masking tape, paper plates/plastic cups/napkins/silverware

THANK YOU!
i<3 you all!

Attention Allegros:

Go get your $6 right now!!!

So far the only people who have paid are:
Chris Paterson

not so good.

Please bring your money in guys, we are going to get the gifts tomorrow after school.

<3 you all

im off to work until flipping 11 tonight (uh, not so happy bout that one)

bye bye

update? meh.

uhhh...

this is awkward...

i got nike free's
they are pink
and cute

i'm singing "life of the party" and "millwork" for my audition at American University
still unknown on the monolouges (this is where you comment and leave me good ideas if you have them)

my boyfriend is really sweet-we are in love love love-i want the whole world to know.

i went to a 90th birthday party tonight--it was rockin.

k, thats all.

Yupp..

 

( Me and John, fun times. )